Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Voyeuristic confessions of the eye



We'd kissed and with careless abandon. In front of people and not.
We'd held hands.
We'd danced.
Sure fingers that entwined suggestively.
Laughs that carried far in the summer wind.

I'd locked him out of the car only to let him in after he'd kissed the dust stained windows more times than I wanted.

Eyes. They watched.

Resentful looks. Envious and bitter looks that bruised us purple. They were the ones who married without love.

Lost looks. Bemused ones even. They were the ones who lost a love after they married.

Scornful looks. Dripping with contempt and disdain. They were the ones who were the infidels.

Shy looks. Bashful and coy, like a teenager. An innocence that will soon be raped of.

Sneaking looks. Warm breaths drawn back, lined with sidelong second glances. Voyeurism even when not from a secret vantage point.

All the people who'd watched us must have made love that night. Or at least had sex.

44 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

or maybe just jerked off

11:14 PM  
Blogger Sarah said...

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11:18 PM  
Blogger Sarah said...

and the love in your eyes, what 'look' would tht be?

11:20 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

"I'd locked him out of the car only to let him in after he'd kissed the dust stained windows more times than I wanted."

the wheel will turn and he will get his chances too r has he already ?!!

-S

11:43 PM  
Blogger Mrs. Dalloway said...

Anon: Possible!

Immigrant in Canada: A very 'hopelessly-in-love' one!

S: I'll pay you back for that one honey! Aren't you fond of your shirts any longer?

11:45 PM  
Blogger phatichar said...

Hmmmmm...

3:29 AM  
Blogger Dhanush | ധനുഷ് said...

Bad Eyes :-)

4:09 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Dalloway said...

Phatichar: Hmmmm... to you too! :p

Dhanush: He he...

6:35 AM  
Blogger Lost in trance... said...

somethings happened....ur writing aint the same.

10:47 AM  
Blogger pDd said...

oh i hate it when ppl do that! Spying eyes!
Lying eyes?

3:55 PM  
Blogger pDd said...

And HOW the bloody hell did I miss this development!??? you have a boyfriend?!?!?!?
I want all the details!! If that email is not in my inbox by tmrow morning, just you wait and see missy!

ps: I might come to chennai when I come home in the summer!

4:02 PM  
Blogger Mrs. Dalloway said...

Lost in trance: You happen to be the second person to say that! Wonder what's changed!

Pallavi: Err... let me mail you! But Chennai in summer would be suicidal my girl!

9:04 PM  
Blogger clash said...

"All the people who'd watched us must have made love that night. Or at least had sex" - U r too unsure about it! I know, it happens when u hold that feeling that u dont have anything that can inspire anyone,im simple terms its called Inferiority complex! :)-

"I'd locked him out of the car only to let him in after he'd kissed the dust stained windows more times than I wanted" - Got remimded of Salman Khan. It seems he told Aishwarya Rai to drink the water in the hot water bowl after he washed his hand in that(After a sumptuous meal!) Great! U turning out to be a Lady Sallu!

Just Chill! Just Chill!

9:54 PM  
Blogger Mrs. Dalloway said...

Clash: Grow up. Sex and making love are two different things. You have to have both to know the difference.

There are people and there are people. Some say nice things coz they mean it. Some say bad things coz they mean it. Can respect both. But the some that are acerbic coz they think that's the coolest thing to be. Hypocrites. Can't deal with them. *Sigh*

10:09 PM  
Blogger clash said...

Ha ha... I have grown enough. I have had both Sex n making love! I have known the difference also. Now, that nullifies the issue!

"Some say nice things coz they mean it. Some say bad things coz they mean it. Can respect both." - I have been respecting both. At times, No! Take it- you belong to those.

“...acerbic coz they think that's the coolest thing to be. Hypocrites" - Being acerbic is being hypocrite?? I call it the "Poornima theory"! Like Friedman, who proposed the "McDonalds = Peace" -Golden Arches Theory, U being irresistible to acerbic notes. Pity U!

Happens!

10:33 PM  
Blogger Mrs. Dalloway said...

Clash: I've never reacted in such a way to any of your so called 'acerbic' comments. Then why now? Coz I plain was disappointed with your cheap comparison to the Rai-Khan issue. Which made everything you've said and alas the human fallacy, you've said so far- sound shallow. Being acerbic because one thinks it cool- is hypocritic. That is quite a universal thing. If I am credited to the 'theory'- so be it.

*Sigh* Yeah- happens.

11:21 PM  
Blogger clash said...

I was never Acerbic. You felt those as acerbic.

Your cheap comparison to the Rai-Khan issue - Cheap issues are tackled, quoting cheap issues coz for a cheap issue ,you will never find a sensible issue to tackle with. Cheap things are always cheap!

11:28 PM  
Blogger clash said...

Im very sorry to say, that i have missed out all your good posts to comment on. The "turtles..." one was a good one, though it mirrors a lot of childish innocence in you..Good posts are always appreciated,its not my mistake or yours that i get only the worst- "He-she sagas' to comment on!

12:05 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Dalloway said...

Clash: If you aren't happy with what I write, why come again and again to read it? If its an event of self punishment, pls dont share the joy!

And good posts. I write what I feel like. Take it or leave it. This and even this doesn't feature your latest style of 'cheap' comments.

12:25 AM  
Blogger Dhanush | ധനുഷ് said...

Truuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuce !!!!!!
Dhanno has come with the White Flag :)

3:47 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Gosh!!
@Clash : I totally get the freedom of expression of thingy, a critique is always welcome but should be constructive :)....I didn't see that in ur comments, it was more like trying to instigate a fight...which is quite unwarranted :)....No offence...:)
@Poornima : U still have a story to write for me, dedicated to me remember??? :)...lol...

12:54 PM  
Blogger Mrs. Dalloway said...

SilentWaters: Lord Byron. I love the guy.

"Seek roses in December-ice in June;
Hope constancy in wind, or corn in chaff;
Believe a woman or an epitaph,
Or an other thing that's false, before you trust in critics,
who themselves are sore."

8:43 PM  
Blogger clash said...

I dont guide my way imbibing some narcissistic quotes, Be it Byron,shelly or for that matter anyone.I have my own ways and thoughts to guide me.


Happy writing!

9:54 PM  
Blogger Hafis said...

Lady Godiva rode the hoarse and thought people around being voyeur
People thought the act of riding the hoarse naked, shocking and obscene .

Who is at fault here? Lady Godiva or the people around?

Of course it’s not Lady Godiva. Because she was living a delusion.

There is this proverbial bird which shakes it’s ass and finds the whole world shaking

Clash There are people with different opinions and tastes and no matter how absurd their opinion may be, they find it hard to change

Poornima you made the goddamn mistake of silencing a critique
It’s just an old ruse of rattle snakes.
Well, it's so assumptious and condescending of you to take the people around as voyeurs!!!

(Taken for granted, a less culture).

There are different ways you can look at life. But I must tell you , the essence or the beauty of life lies in the innocence of asking questions. It’s not in the Idiocy of finding answers

12:42 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Dalloway said...

Clash: Those people were taken seriously for a reason. Pity you can't see it. And again, I write coz I want to. And happily so. If you aren't happy with what's being wriiten and on the lines of now- let me help you here. More's gonna follow.


Googoo: A critique (tres French eh?), is to be taken seriously if he has something 'critical' to say. Comparison to cheap tabloid stuff wasn't helping. And I think you better read the title. It wasn't about the people.

2:05 AM  
Blogger clash said...

More's gonna follow!!

2:34 AM  
Blogger Hafis said...

Did I say it was about the title !!!!
then you better read my comment once again

2:41 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

nice imagination!!!!

3:24 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'd not like to stop with a superlative-'BEST BLOG' dedicated to this piece alone!

Hard to believe, but a must believe one:

I resisted commenting "Well written" for every blog of your's that I stumbled upon just a few days ago, for the sole reason I couldn't control the surge of interest in reading "I finally publish" at a stretch!

No one else can weave a story/incident with such craft.

Here I hail "Include me to your fan club" will ya?

-Admirer of Poornima's blogs

3:11 PM  
Blogger Xoff said...

oooh things are heating up in here, in more ways than one ;-)

6:23 AM  
Blogger sp said...

Too good ! Esp the last line.

8:10 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Dalloway said...

Clash: Insha Allah!

Googoo: Duh?! Well, it's so assumptious and condescending of you to take the people around as voyeurs!!! For which I'd replied- wasn't talking about people. Everyline out there is about the looks! I only wish people read what they themselves were saying!

Anon: Thank you!

Aparna: :) That was one of the best things I heard all day! Thank you!

Xoff: You'd been away long!

Sp: Thank you.

Reverend: I think there is one in Chennai too. I'd laughed at the innovative way of making money!

5:39 AM  
Blogger pDd said...

where is my email???

3:34 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

So you thing none of those 'eyes' were just disgusted with the public display of affection...maybe they just were trying to tell you guys "Get a room willya?"

10:34 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Dalloway said...

Pallavi: I did!!

Anon: I don't 'thing'! Lol!

6:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

aww girl...your response was to make fun of the typo? tsk tsk!
ps - Googoo- loved your lady godiva analogy

7:17 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Dalloway said...

Anon: And Lady Godiva is known for an act she perhaps didn't commit!

Bottom line- I have a huge respect for Clash and Googoo- coz they said what they did without running to the facade of anonimity.

9:39 PM  
Blogger Shinu Mathew said...

Poornima,
Thx for dropping by.
I see that Clash has reached here too. What is wrong with him? He critize for the sake of it. Everywhere he go, he critisize using his dirty language.
I am fed up with this man. He doesn't aprove anyone, their writings nothing. I think he is a confused soul trying to find his niche in this world.
Good luck to you Clash.

11:00 PM  
Blogger Mrs. Dalloway said...

Shinu: I reached your blog thru his! And I really don't want another fight on my hands! Am willing the dust to settle down, of the one that's just past!

1:18 AM  
Blogger Shinu Mathew said...

I am all for a ceasefire. :)
well, It just irks me when some one deliberately provoking. Anyway, I am glad that fight has some positives. I get to read your blog :))
Fine work. Keep it up. I'll not say a word against him on YOUR blog. We may keep that fight on other platforms :)

1:55 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Dalloway said...

Shinu: Fighting with people who the sole reason they exist is to pick up with a quarrel is giving them just what they want. My lesson learnt!

5:09 AM  
Blogger rākeśvara said...

Well under the beautiful fabric of a poetic narration lies an unmistakable contempt for people at large; why else aren't there people (or is it eyes, sorry, the craft of weaving metaphors is not mine) who would think, "welcome to the league, hope your love is at least a tenth as pristine as mine for hers and hers for me."

10:34 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Dalloway said...

Raka: Was there even a single mention of being in love? Some things are not to be classified. In a league of their own- however despicable or pristine they be.

9:21 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

guys i think she is genuinely writing for her happiness and some time ours . see, u dont even see a google ad in her blog .

4:38 AM  

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