Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Blue Melody

It suddenly came upon me when we were in the auto. Like that. Some things happen like that you know.

I took a look at him and started to cry. Just like that.

He'd read somewhere that women were hysterical creatures. Men who write about women should be shot. And he was sure I fell in that classification firm. So he didn't seem too perturbed by it.

That just made me cry harder. What tears unseen worth anyway?

If he'd waited any longer, the auto driver would turned and offered me a sympathetic shoulder and that wouldn't just do. So he asks me, 'Why you crying?"

I never accept I cry and especially when I am.

"I'm not crying"
"Yes you are"
"I'm not"
"Yes you are"

What's the point of saying something we both know true anyway? So I go back to crying.

"So why you crying?"

It is with great reluctance I tell him my answer. Not that it matters much to him, but it sure does a lot to me. The weight of significance isn't uniform.

"I don't have any defences with you"

He doesn't say anything for a while. I look at him with tear filled eyes- he appears blurred. Am not sure exactly how far he is, but he appears blurred. I am sure exactly how far he is, a shoulder touching distance away, but he appears blurred.

"Why do you want them defences?"

That’s when I begin crying harder. Harder than the harder before.

His hand on my shoulder grips me firmer.

He reads the boards of the various shops we pass them by. One by one.

"Cell city"

"Juice wagon"

"Jolly tailors"

"Lovely snacks"

I stop crying and look at the names as he reads.

There is a blue cloth that flaps by the mirror in the auto. It makes a nice warm sound in the wind.

40 Comments:

Blogger A Liberated Soul said...

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2:38 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow!

Have been waiting for so long. How have you been?

D

2:39 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i have a question, do u take a snap or get a search from google?

I just wonder that image best suits......

7:47 PM  
Blogger Poornima said...

D: Been.

Anon: It took me ages to find this pic... and the post waited until I did.

8:47 PM  
Blogger Sri said...

Auto matic crying?!!

9:19 PM  
Blogger The Mind Bedouin said...

there is something so poignant and yet..oh so innocent about this piece... that i love it.. really love it..

you culd have edited a lil more before you published though...

keep up the good work.:)

10:41 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Read all the appreciations...But I did find anything in this stuff!!!?
I am disappointed..may b for the first time!!!

J

11:27 PM  
Blogger Poornima said...

Sri: :))

Mind Bedouin: Editing is one thing that I can't seem to be able to do!!!

J: There wasn't anything in it in the first place...

12:40 AM  
Blogger Ty Pheng said...

You finally find it ... ')
Nice !!

7:03 AM  
Blogger Poornima said...

Ty: Yeah... had no choice. You didn't have the time to take me a better pic! :)

9:13 PM  
Blogger arvindiyer said...

And she writes again:) Welcome back.

Autorickshaw diaries.. always comes with the most interesting experiences:)

12:25 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

sad! :(

J

3:32 AM  
Blogger vrinda said...

i dont know if i liked this one very much..and if i did, the bad editing kind of put me a little off...

6:11 AM  
Blogger Adrija said...

Nice one...shows the child within.

Have been reading ur posts for a while but never commented thought of doing so this time :)

1:34 AM  
Blogger jasdeep mandia said...

very well written.
likes these lines alot.....
He'd read somewhere that women were hysterical creatures. Men who write about women should be shot........

2:44 AM  
Blogger whencatrawman said...

You still retain that mystic charm in what you write .....

But you are not writing much these days ..... And most posts have a repetitive feel. You remind me of today's Ilayaraja. He doesn score a lot these days nor does his sporadic scores sound fresh ... But that charm is there. The mystic charm of his music ..... and your writing.

10:10 AM  
Blogger kriti said...

was beginning to find your posts a bit repetitive... all had a tinge of sadness... but this one i liked... it's fresh and hopeful and very realistic...

11:46 PM  
Blogger one among the crowd said...

Hi,

It is..... indeed.... sweet of you ..... posting one liner replies. that...I enjoy......... the most.

Well....Whatever tears one may shed, in the end one always blows one's nose.....(aside)

poignancy..?.? was that intended?.... missing! ...

keep writing.

3:21 AM  
Blogger aks said...

sweetheart....

1:18 PM  
Blogger Genie said...

Really nice.
Good work.

11:44 AM  
Blogger Teens to Toons said...

Well my wife told me to read you.. so I did... i read the beginning and its good.. decent..

keep going..

2:08 AM  
Blogger Manasa said...

next time she cries, he knows the remedy :)

9:37 AM  
Blogger Ashish said...

Have been checking out your blog for ages, but to no avail .... at last my wish comes true and there is a new post. Welcome back !

2:05 AM  
OpenID remabh said...

its a nice one poornima :)

10:08 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi poornima,
Need a help. I remember reading a comment on of your post, I dont remember which one :( , by someone. It actually gave a link to a website/blogspot where people actually pour out their secrets. Something like a confession. I vaguely remember it to contain something like project365 or something. I nearly searched 6 months of your post (2007) but was unable to find anything :(.... can you help me...
Thnks in advance ;)

2:48 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

oh why aren't u writing anymore?

please please do!

7:21 AM  
Anonymous Ranjith said...

Hey, used to be a reader years ago. The other day I just happened to check this page out randomly. You were good to begin with. N with time your writing has reached greater hieghts. Keep going.

1:52 PM  
Blogger one among the crowd said...

Hi Poornima,

Is he...... really back!?! A sulky silence....ain't fitting ....
into the normal......understanding.

2:01 AM  
Blogger Sudha Rangarajan said...

Came across this when I was randomly hopping between blogs. Was hooked to this during my very first visit. Read ALL the posts in one night. After that I have been waiting from over a month for a new post :( :(

4:45 AM  
Blogger AMIT said...

Oh its a nice post from you.

Meridian real estate

1:57 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

:)

9:42 AM  
Blogger Purnima said...

Somebody is missing you!

11:51 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

its bit a long wait blogging is dead..bloggers r dead..te whole world is worried..none sees te ray of hope even u..

3:02 AM  
Anonymous kjerabyt said...

do blog chechi , hope u r in good health , postinu pattiya padam kittanjittano ?

9:34 PM  
Anonymous kerabyte said...

entu patti , hope u are in good health , pattiya padam kittathe post cheyyatha post vallathum undo .....padam kandupidichu taram allenkil padam eduthu taram

9:36 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

:(

2:12 PM  
Blogger Sudarshan. A. G. said...

About time you got back.

10:50 PM  
Blogger ramya said...

:-)
I can't stop smiling! Innocent one

4:25 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Nice to see u back !! Hope u r doing gud

4:38 AM  
Blogger Merlin said...

He... is a very patient man :)

12:07 PM  

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