Sunday, May 11, 2008

No reason to love. Not even love.

I always tend to misspell love as lone.

You love me coz you are tired of your loneliness.
Its worse that I know it.

I'm scared you'll stop.
That I'll be a habit you can discard as easy as you got it on.

I'm scared of the buttons you'll open
And discover a body not very lovable
And even more about how you'll pretend its ok.

Once again I make the same mistake.
I stop being myself.
And try be what you want.
And end up being what neither of us wants.

I wait for you to call me.
You never do.
And when I do
I wait for me to hang up.
And I promise myself I'll not call you.
That is
Until
You call me back
And so I break an already broken promise.

I search for you
In old mails
In past friends
In touched places
In stored SMSs
In movies.
And I find you
And everywhere.
So I never call out
As that will make both of us uncomfortable.
Found
and found.

23 Comments:

Blogger Samyak said...

When did you start gazing into my mind??

You should not be allowed to read my thoughts and read them out aloud to others.

6:51 AM  
Blogger Arvind Iyer said...

Yikes....

Sounds eerily familiar!

9:55 AM  
Blogger one among the crowd said...

hi poornima,

still believe....tend to misspell...?? well....that ain't any accident.......
mistakes...nah!!naah!!!
forlorn and g(l)one....

nice..

12:09 PM  
Blogger [^Italian_Angel^] said...

Awesome!
It's a really cool "poem".
We always make the same mistakes when it comes to relationships don't we?
We always promise we won't fall again for the same trick and it catches us off-guard everytime it strikes again.
And we sucumb to breaking self-promises, that, as you said, were meant to be broken the moment we made them..

I loved your writing..

Greetings from Argentina

12:32 PM  
Anonymous Praval said...

Pretty correct. Life at times gets drifted away from the pledges we take. Moving on is the right word but it's not so easy when it comes to real!
I'm turning out to be your fan now, atleast your blog's :)

2:18 PM  
Blogger Poornima said...

Samyak: Crystal ball! :)

Arvind: Long time. Graduated? :)

OAC: Wallowing in misery. Nice!

Italian Angel: Tango?

Praval: Me n blog- different entities. Glad you see.

12:36 AM  
Anonymous effie said...

u keep writing what i think about. u knw u are better than oprah :)

7:24 AM  
Blogger usha said...

beautifully written.. and the picture at the end, seals it all..

why do we end up repeating the same mistakes over n over again? -the question was running on the back of my mind when I ran into this post.

it's awesome.

7:40 AM  
Blogger Ty said...

Sense and sensitivity.
You can not easily control the second one.
Nice poem. Love the title. :)

3:53 AM  
Blogger BaKfIrE said...

Came back here after a short break, as usual : not disappointed at all. But i guess everybody is looking for the lost ones or may i put the loosing ones.... and we keep repeating it.

12:44 PM  
Blogger Poornima said...

Effie: :) I dont know how to take that now!

Usha: Ty!

Ty: What'll I ever do without you!

Bakfire: History repeats itself coz we seldom pay heed to it the first time.

9:45 PM  
Blogger Mahesh said...

Lovely! :) Hv heard a number of stories on the same lines!

4:56 PM  
Anonymous effie said...

:) compliment compliment!

thankyou for giving words to my thoughts, beautiful words at that.

thankyou so much.

12:56 AM  
Blogger Saltwater Blues said...

such a beautiful blog!

12:11 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

The usual theme but this time I somehow liked it

1:38 PM  
Anonymous prv said...

you wrote exactly what's in my mind... I just broke up with my girl friend... can I send this to her...?

9:27 PM  
Blogger Poornima said...

Mahesh: Some things over n over you hear...

Effie: :))

Anon: yeah. I've heard it too.

SwB: :) Ty!

Prv: Sure! Go on..

3:56 AM  
Blogger Pratz said...

True...as all ur poems are...

"Once again I make the same mistake.
I stop being myself"

"And so I break an already broken promise."

....well written lines :)

9:56 AM  
Blogger The Girl-Next-Door-Software-Engineer said...

Fantastic!!! Esp breaking the already broken promise and the 'searching and finding'!!

12:01 PM  
Blogger Purnima said...

I thought I had everything in place for a perfect friday evening. And I thank myself for choosing your blog to be part of it.

This is awesome stuff and I'm falling in love, all over! ;-)

8:50 AM  
Blogger Winnie the poohi said...

This is so me.. I mean I have done all this.. and yet.. **sigh** some day you just have to stop fooling yourself

2:58 PM  
Blogger eternal dreamer said...

amazing.
felt as if u are speaking my feelings aloud!

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