Sunday, July 10, 2005

Its very windy at my balcony

“Dinner tonight?”

“Hmmm… not really. Thanks though for asking”

A few weeks later…

“Movie?”

“Hmmm…. Not really. Thanks for asking”

He never gives up.

“Why are you so anti social?”

Before I can launch on an analysis as to why I am the way I am, he hastily added, “I mean, can’t you be more social?”

“It’s a choice”

“It’s not a good choice anyway”

Days later.

“Snow bowling”

“I wouldn’t even be able to lift the ball. And I have a terrible aim”

Another time.

“Go karting?”

“Hmmm… why don’t you just go ahead with it and without me?”

I was at a loss. It wasn’t that I was always like this. Beaches, ice cream parlors, parks, friends’ homes, restaurants, movies did exist in my life at some point of time.

Maybe anti social attitude was a catching disease. I think I caught a very potent strain of the virus from someone.

“Dinner?”

I had to do it. He was standing outside my house when he asked me this!!! With him were a few of his friends as well. A clean shirt and a quick introduction later, we found ourselves outside the restaurant.

I found myself sitting beside someone who was 5 minutes old in my life. The person I’d come with had deserted me to get food!!! As if food was important! &*^%$#@

I was getting tired of smiling the same strained smile at the same person, when I decided that talking was less painful to those forced muscles.

“So, where do you work?”

“I don’t have a job as of now. I am jobless. Unemployed like a lot of Indians.”

I wish the earth had opened up and swallowed me. But I sat on firmly on the chair which was firm on the unmoving ground.

I took another look at him and decided that he looked very familiar.

“You look very familiar, but I can’t place it…”

He smiled. We went back to forced smiling. I’d done my bit.

It was when he was biting onto his burger and the lettuce popped out of that I got it!

I told him, “You look exactly like my cousin Anitha Chechi!”

I’ve stopped going out.
I’ve stopped trying to be social.
I hang out in the balcony with the clothes in the clothes line.

30 Comments:

Blogger Bratrat said...

yaaay! I spotted moiself!!! :D
...now, one should always 'live to eat'...wot say?!!?
hehehehe......first comment ;o)

10:51 PM  
Blogger manuscrypts said...

lol... totally understand..
the only thing missing would be a description on the image like 'poornima, 2nd row, 3rd from left' :p

1:25 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

thanks...you know why...i guess if u started being more social, you wouldn't be so messed up in the head...its all that repression and depression etc., that brings out your creativity ;) God Forbid, you become "Normal" ;)

1:35 AM  
Blogger TinTin said...

dammit..whats wrong with my blogger settings...it keeps going to annonymous even though i'm logged in !!!!! i still have problems using a mouse even though i'm an IT manager ;)

1:36 AM  
Blogger Jasmine said...

ouch! the poor guy! And he made no mistake other than sitting next to an anti-social person!

2:11 AM  
Blogger Chugs said...

hmm...i can relate to the "anti-social attitude" bit.

2:39 AM  
Blogger aks said...

hey poornima...anti social...u...i think ur not the poornima i know????

3:07 AM  
Blogger Poornima said...

Bratrat: Yeah. So now you know am anti social and how the dinner fared, no more invites ok?

Manuscrypts: This is like Churchill and the Panda. With only two of them in the pic and an explanation in the bottom, "Winston Churchill with the Panda. Churchill on the right"

Tintin: I become 'normal'? You almost called me gay once! What are you trying to do man, ruin my reputation? But then what reputation alle?

Jasmine: He should have talked rather than let me!

Chugs: There are a lot of 'me' walking this earth I think!

Aks: You know me????? This is a lil freaky! I have no clue who you are! And well, if as you claim you do, maybe you knew me in the past. Things change and so do I.

3:22 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Social? Socialist? Socialism? All dying/dead concepts. Up the revolution. What the world needs is less people. Lets have a nuclear war. Hooray!!!

Kraz.

4:51 AM  
Blogger L said...

Awesome writing...Anyway its hard intuitively to see such an unsocial poornima to write so well..Good work anyway..!

10:47 AM  
Blogger yesbob said...

food IS important !!

2:11 PM  
Blogger Poornima said...

Kraz: I so agree. There are just way too many people!

L: Thank you. Unsocial and hence shouldnt write well? Have you heard of J.D Salinger?

Yesbob: Lol. Yeah. Rotis?

8:56 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Grrrrrr *growl*

Anonymous!

9:41 PM  
Blogger hope and love said...

a person who writes so well had difficulty with speech.. ?!

:-))
dont worry its a passing phase..

1:32 AM  
Blogger mannu said...

understanding.. is the key to everything.. atleast when it comes dinner!! ;)

2:52 AM  
Blogger Jithu said...

hmm... poor chap :-)

5:58 AM  
Blogger Poornima said...

Fadia: Lol. Why are you barking now? Have you moved over from kittens to puppies ?!

Hope and love: I do not have difficluty with speech! That's the whole problem!!!!!!

Mannu: And after dinner?

Jithu: Poor me! And yeah- poor him too. Sigh!

6:03 AM  
Blogger tcr_79 said...

You and anti-social... Interesting...

You are more "Aunty Social"

1:02 PM  
Blogger pallavi said...

have found myself in that spot very often...is it just me, or is weather-talk truly the last resort??

1:50 PM  
Blogger Poornima said...

Krish: After meeting people like you, I have turned anti-social!!

Pallavi: Damn- why didnt I think of safer topics like the weather?!

8:59 PM  
Blogger pallavi said...

LOL!! :)

2:08 AM  
Blogger Bratrat said...

no more invites from me!!! lol!! too much....god! u made it sound like I so wanted yer company fer an outing!! but, hell u r good company anyways ;D
next I shall just drag u minus the invite ;p
next time...hmmmm!! how many months will that be?!?!
cya when I cya ;o)

4:59 AM  
Blogger Poornima said...

Bratrat: Ah, I tend to over estimate myself don't I?

Dont go!

5:13 AM  
Blogger Praveen said...

Hmmmm... so you have turned anti social. Or maybe you are just keeping a "low profile" :). Guess what, I almost thought till I reached the end of the article that you wont have a picture to go with this post, but I was wrong :).

6:04 AM  
Blogger tcr_79 said...

Ha-ha :)

I used to wonder - Why do most of my friends love to say " I hate you" to me

Now I know... :)

8:12 AM  
Blogger Poornima said...

Praveen: I so love photographs and when I do find one that rhymes with what I have in mind, a must post alle?!

Krish: Oh, haven't I told you a number of times that I love to hate you?

9:05 PM  
Blogger tcr_79 said...

You tell me that all the time!!!

And each and every time I reply by saying that - "The feeling is mutual"

6:50 AM  
Blogger Tricksand said...

Its just the matter of a mask once its gone...things are more smooth and...pitty those guys who doesn't know tat there is always a better choice and this world is full of opertunities so no need to waste time trying to get water from a dried up well..its always better to find a yeilding well...

11:53 AM  
Blogger Poornima said...

Dhyaanam: Dried up well? Yielding one? Lol!

9:01 PM  
Blogger mannu said...

good to see u back..

10:15 PM  

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